Now for the lessons I've learned from my mistakes. I've learned that sometime in everyone's life they are going to have to make a choice. Everyone is going to make some bad choices and everyone is going to make some good choices. But there are also choices that are on a gray fuzzy line that is hard to tell whether the choice you make is a good one or a bad one. I made a choice that at the time of the decision I thought was an ok choice. Every girl has an older boy she looks up to and likes. My sister Cheyenne was in love with Jared for the longest time. I know Girl A didn't like me more than a friend and she knew I didn't like her more than a friend. I made sure I let her know that in no way shape or form did I like her more than a friend nor did I want to do anything with her that friends don't do. It seemed at the time with all that said that my decision was ok since we both knew what we said wasn't serious, but as I found out that decision was wrong. Girl A mom found out and thought Girl A and I were really dating. So as any good parent would do she freaked. I don't blame her I know if I had a daughter who I thought was dating a 19 year old I'd freak too. So I've learned that I have to be more responsible with my decisions and to think them through more thoroughly. I can't just think of what might happen day to day, but what the outcome of my decision might produce in the future. In this case my decision might end my cheer career which has been my life for the last five years. I've also learned that no matter what choices someone makes they will have to deal with the consequences that tag along with the choice. I may have meant no harm in what I was doing, but it created harm and I have to deal with the consequences no matter what they are because in the end it was my choice to go along with Girl A's game. I could of said no and walked away which i now know was the better choice, but I didn't. So I just wanted to let you know I am deeply sorry and I regret causing all the trouble that my decision has brought you. I know it's not easy moving schedules around and dealing with the parents complaining that their kids have to go to a different class than what they were in before. I guess that's another lesson learned... I shouldn't just look at how my decision might affect me, but I also need to look at how my decisions might affect the people around me. Once again I am sorry for any trouble I have caused to you and Shawn and sorry this email is so long, I've learned a lot over the past few days.

Sincerely,

Anthony de la Torriente

Ok now you all know why I am no longer at cf. You guys can say I'm a bad person, but in reality I know I'm not. I am still a kid and I still makes mistakes. I did not lay one finger on Girl A or did I have any intentions of it. I never hung out with her outside of cheer and when we did hang out in cheer it was with a big group of cheerleaders out in the open. Society is so quick to put blame, but so slow to forgive. I am still deeply sorry for any trouble I have put on CF. They did not fire me. The choice was in my hands whether to stay or to go. I picked to go 1 because my mom was deeply hurt by my bad decision and 2 I didn't want to walk into a gym with everyone staring at me like I was a bad kid. I truly meant no harm from this, but it is up to you guys how you want to judge me now. You guys now know why i quit. I got involved with a fake relationship that even though it was fake should have never existed.

The reason I am posting this is because it seems that only half the story got out which is normally the case, and I wanted to let everyone know the truth. The first part was actual message I sent to Becky and Shawn to appologize for my mistake. I did change the girl's name to Girl A in order to protect her identity for the people who don't know who it is. I hope you guys don't think I am a bad kid because i truly had no unlawful intents.